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So since my last post, the scale hasn't moved much, 276.6lbs. Which can be incredibly discouraging. I have decided to hide the scale for the ENTIRE month of February. I am a little nervous, but it's for the best. I started this journey in a size 28 pants and I am currently wearing a size 18. I was recently able to purchase my very first pair of knee boots. The scale is not the only measuring tool. I can feel and see the difference. I think maybe I was a size 18 in 9th grade, maybe, it could have been 7th grade. I don't really ever remember not shopping in the plus size section.
I have been dealing with some general illnesses since November and I am finally getting back to a normal gym schedule. I have practiced yoga for 2 or 3 years, even at my highest weight of 364lbs, I still went to yoga. I am currently still attending yoga, and I have started a Barre Revolution class (which is a mix of ballet and Pilates, sort of) and spin classes. I still use the elliptical as well. I truly believe that you should find what type of exercise works for your body, find what you enjoy and look forward to and do that! I'm sure the stair-stepper thing is great for some people, it feels like hell to me: I don't use the stair-stepper thing. Yoga makes me feel powerful.
I also have days when I feel fat and gross, we all do. More days than not, I feel beautiful. I feel strong and like I can do anything.
I have sought medical attention and had a Panniculectomy consult ( http://surgery.med.umich.edu/plastic/patient/adult_procedures/panniculectomy/ ). BCBS of Alabama denied the claim, basically because I do not have any open sores or wound, infections, or rashes. I politely and sternly explained to BCBS of Al, medical review department that I felt like I was being punished for having good hygiene. I am waiting for a reply.
This new lifestyle is great and I will continue to adapt to the changes. Everyday is a new normal.

Love you Guys!
Sara

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