Did you say the D word...Depression?

Let's get honest. I take an anti-depressant. My name is Sara Linkous and I suffer from Depression (along with some other things). I have taken anti-depressants in the past, for a year or so. And several months ago I was in a funk. I was at my PCP's office and he mentioned something about depression and I teared up, he put his hand on my shoulder and said something like "We're going to work on this" or "it's ok," I don't remember what he said, but it gave me hope.

I have regained some of the weight I lost. My thyroid issue was not under control (it is much better now), my lymphatic system was not working, my hyper-somnia was worse... I was kind of a mess. But I bet you couldn't tell. I would put on a happy face for work and church and family (some family members saw through it a called me out, thank you).

Depression is a freaking jerk. I am doing better, there are more good days than bad.
I don't say this for sympathy, but to encourage you to talk to someone about how you are feeling (I know it sounds all "counselor like,", but hey, I am one). Don't feel like you are alone. Fight for your health, mental and physical. You know you better than anyone else.

I am a YouTube watcher and stumbled across this video today and I am going to share it. The one statement that stuck with me was “The key to healing, is taking away the shame."(*side note, another good statement that I heard that is related to addiction was this, "we are not going to arrest our way out of this," but I'll address that another day*)

People Didn't Believe My Mental Illness

Much Love,

Sara

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How Many Pounds?

( started this like 12 weeks ago, life got chaotic ... let's pretend that it is March) So, Leap Day 2016, I entered CRMC (with my amazingly supportive moma) and registered in the pre-op area. This day came sooner than I anticipated, but again...The Lord has His timing. For those of you wandering (and that did ask) no, I was not nervous. I wasn't nervous about the other surgery either. It just felt like it was the next-step (shout out to my new friend Ben, who is having his VSG as I type). I believe that the Lord covers us in a calm, when it's something that it suppose to happen, when whatever it is, is part of His plan. And sometimes His plan is crazy town. Yancy was my pre-op nurse and that sweet soul prayed over me before they took me back. Thankfully, I don't remember a lot once I got into the Operating Room. I do remember seeing Phillip, Justina, and Blake. They are all familiar and calming faces. Then I woke up in recovery, only slightly nauseated (YAY Phillip). ...

Who said no?

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One year already?!

Can you even believe it?! I cannot. June 5th was officially one year since I underwent VGS (vertical sleeve gastrectomy). It was surely life changing. By now I hope that you all understand the HUGE MASSIVE GIANT role that you played in my surgery. I am forever thankful. This post is going to list some things that have changed since surgery, some of which you may not understand, if you have never been over weight... and a lot of photos. 1. My highest documented weight was 364lbs, I currently weigh 250lbs. 2. I wore a 4x or 26/28 prior to surgery, I currently wear 1x, xl (which are NOT the same) and 14/16/18 pants... brands y'all. 3. My ring size went from a 10 to a 7. 4. Bra band size went from 46 to 38/40. 5. I am rocking a 2 piece at the pool! 6. My feet are smaller, maybe 1/2 size. 7. I have collar bones! (Say what) 8. I can easily shave my whole leg. 9. I have the ability to paint my own toes and not pass out. 10. I can go into almost any "normal size" sto...

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